It’s Monday morning and I don’t have the blues. I am even happy inside. Could be because I tried stand up paddled and cycled all day yesterday with my love, I feel it in my body today. The house state is ok, somehow held at the point of balance where it could go up or down in terms of cleanliness. We tend to go down but are working on that with baby steps.
What’s it like to be 40 in the summer? Only happens once right and why don’t we celebrate it like being 10? I feel over wrapped with a bit of extra weight hanging on. It could be the first time that I feel the garb in my arms and thighs as I move around. Dressing up has changed. Pictures put me in a size I don’t recognize. My energy has been low but I had surgery this month. Still it’s that stress and workload management, nothing new regarding this one. In fact I manage stress better than 10 years ago. But I used to be a bit more active generally and diet has been by no means exemplar. Living with a Polish man that works in a liquor store, I’ve been drinking more regularly and more casually cause it’s there. That can be accountable for my skin breakouts (that’s also new to me), low energy and extra handles, so I’m reducing and swapping wine and beer for iced tea. I started to drink diet coke at work, that’s weird too.
I’m starting my week with lots of health to-do’s. It’s true that there is much more health appointments to manage than ever, I have some that are queued up for years. I think I’m in pretty good health overall, that’s what my doctor told me at my last check-up.
At 40, I also have better working conditions than ever. My office is an architectural beauty with a pool and beer tap, and a community of workers I need to know better. If there is something I can work on during my forties is too relax and socialize more. That’s a pretty good plan for me. I have about 5 weeks of paid vacations, a good salary, nobody controlling my schedule. Can travel etc. I guess that’s a good career and I am reminded of that as a counter to heavy stress periods. It’s also litteraly a 10 minute walk a day from my home to my desk.
I will continue this thread later,
Amourx.
