Pause

It's not exactly how I expected it -- all this time taken to rest. You'd imagine that I would do all the things that I don't do when I work, but it doesn't happen that way. I sleep a lot. I do a little cleaning, I do a little writing, I follow some of my obligations, I push back on others.

If I had to imagine my life All Better, well... I would be living somewhere by the water I'm sure. In a house with windows, a clean house. I'd be writing, cooking, maybe raising kids of some sort? I don't know if I would go all homey and crafty, or more outdoorsy. I don't know much these days. I'd probably do like my sister and run my own little thing on my own time.

Remember when I said that there was 2 things that drained the hell out of me but that my life revolved around nonetheless? Well, I have kicked one of them out and lived on to tell the tale. This is where I landed. The second thing well, I don't have much strength to deal with it, and besides it's going fine now.

I don't have the mindset to write, or even to read much. It's very different then when I was working. I would crave those moments of reading and knitting. Not so much now. I guess that I am disoriented. I'd rather go on a roadtrip, a long journey.

Not unhappy though, no. I'm happy. I'm resting. Maybe it's best not to try to understand it too much.

Music. I'd like to find some music for this period. That may be what is missing.

All good,

Amourx.