Remember the fruit that I had at arms length, that smelled like a pear? Well it fell off the tree and made a thump sound. I have been devastated all week-end and my options are opening and narrowing at the same time. I feel the void like a heavy weight on my shoulders and in my chest. I have this fear and a lot of mixed emotions to sort out and I hear a ticking clock too.
I've been good at staying active if not positive during the week-end. I went indoor climbing and passed an unplanned and unprepared climbing accreditation! Then I went to the mountain but not at the top. Copain followed me all thru it. He made some portuguese chicken yesterday too (I count that as a thing on my list, somehow...). I also went to the yoga class on friday.
A couple things that I can do to stay sane:
-try to get an earlier meeting with my specialist
-make a schedule involving seven hours of 'work' and sticking to it.
-write down and rationalize my mixed emotions
-write down my options
-meditate and calm down
Good things:
At least 2 more weeks of rest.
A healthy body.
Sunny days.
Friends and family.
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