Mudras

Heeey, it's been a short while. I don't have the inclination to write much. This is strange, but I also don't have much appetite, or the need to knit or sew. Well, those would be symptoms. I am getting out of the rut slowly and also taming the fear that I bare. Oh what will the world do to me if it finds out what a traitorous slob of sloth that I am... was what was running down my spine all day. Not useful for nobody.

I will see my specialist only saturday. That's supposed to be a short week before my return to work, but I won't return right away. I'm not ready and this is the part that I will defend. I'm awaiting some news but I expect them late and I am a little more ready to hear bad news this time.

I picked up the David Burns book that has a complete strategy to get out of depression, I used it before and it worked. I'm reading a book on mudras (hand postures and meditations), I am meditating and moving my butt everyday at minimum, and this morning I got a training program and I will follow it to the tee. I went back to my old trainer Patricia, she's great. And I had all these sessions pre-paid from 2 years ago so it only costs me 10$ for a day pass, since I am not a member.

I am not trying to bore you with minute day things but that's what is coming out of me. After my session, I went home, started to read, and fell asleep for a couple hours. Very deep sleep. It feels so good. I have a new rule of banning TV, it's the first day. It's a good idea. My mood has lifted this morning, I felt it. I am more neutral now.

Another rule that I have is to accept every invitation that I get. Well yesterday I didn't go to the movies with copain, but he's an exception. Tonight I am going to the South Shore for dinner and drinks, not too many. If I would listen to my ass I wouldn't go, but hey, I gotta.

Amourx.