Adequation

I would be a knitwear writer, teacher and lecturer if this existed. I don't produce finished pieces very frequently. I can design on the fly, I have done it with a scarf, and I modify things on the go. I don't like to reknit so I often integrate mistakes as part of a new design element if I can get away with it. But none of this makes me a master knitter or designer. I would be a knitting scholar.

I am home being quiet and this is good. Work is very challenging and stressful, but I cleared the week-end of it and this is good.

Last week, believe it, I had a St-Patrick's party at my place. Can you believe it? Moi? And also, it was a complete success. I hosted with my beau, we are a great team. He helped me prepare my apartment and clean big time afterwards (way beyond my standards). Guests where friendly, brought food, had lots of drinks, and stayed until past 4 in the morning. One even slept on the couch, and the day after was tough as it should be. My friends liked his friends, and vice versa. I could not have dreamed up of a better scenario, and I am grateful, blessed, happy, everything.

It is the first time that I have people officially over for a party. It is a big step for me. And my beau is there all the way, in fact he was the enabler. I love him (and he loves me). My apartment is changed and I brought in a few pieces to decorate. All in all I finally feel adequate, socially. I took me some time.

I had to lapse at my fitness plan boohoo. The after-party, and the tempo at work made it hard for me to go to the gym after work. I have worked late and packed in double-duty days, in which I do twice the work in half the time, somehow, consistently. This rhythm should never be sustained for too long, but I am at that point. Help has arrived now and I will see an improvement, but right now, it's just all burn.

Tonight I wanted to hang in there quietly and not feel to sad/guilty about the gym. The intention is good, life sometimes gets in the way, and sometimes it's great stuff like hosting your own party too. I vow to let great stuff get in the way when it can, and have no regrets about it. Life is short and I am living it.

Amourx.