Beat

I lied about doing a bad job at work - I'm doing a really good one, there is no point denying my good work.

I felt like crying once or twice, specially at after a 'how are you' from an overseas friend. That didn't go too well, I always forget to be professional with this guy. Part of my job means that I should really manage emotions and master the poker face, no emotion drill. My friend and ex boss J is the queen in this respect. But lets face it, I am a very emotional, sensitive girl that is still struggling to even understand these beasties within me.

Home now I am beat. Had no sleep last night. The day feels like a breakup, but copain doesn't seem to see it that way and I don't have the heart or the strenght to push it further. I am collapsed on my sofa, ate way to much, and will be in this position until tomorrow. Not making any plans for holiday (because should we talk them apart?), Not knitting his sweater, Not doing any of the things that would help me feel good, pushing everything to tomorrow and the next day, and the next day.

I gotta leave this town.

Amourx.