Gone

My workload and responsibilities have increased exponentially week by week for the last 3 and this is a trend that's not going away. It's damaging for my health and state of mind that is already fragile. I'm exhausted.

On Friday, 2 co-workers offered their help and i am so grateful. I am offended that my superiors hope that i resolve every problem I've run into and that caused me to work 10 hours a day and on week-ends at no extra cost. Never mind the damage it's doing to my sanity. You want me to do more and pretend that it's a piece of cake? You don't care what it's doing to me? I see.

This is probably a No Go for me.

In the meantime it's Sunday today and I am trying to recharge. I'm worried about next Sunday. Already I speak to myself outloud in the corridors at work sometimes, I have heavy mood swings and my sleep is not great. I'm dreaming of pulling the plug, resting, are starting over in a different career.

I schedulled an important meeting Wednesday morning. I have an appointment with my doctor who's treating my mood disorder condition, on Wednesday morning. Who will win? The entire 'rest of my life is suspended' right now.

Thank god I have a good book to take me to bed (eat, drink, pray). I still have my beau too. We saw two good stand-up comic shows last night. Cheap last minute tickets. Good idea.

Today my mission is to make my home smell good and rest.

Amour xxx