Day 3

Day 3 because I started to exercise 30 min. every day since two days ago. My mood is drastically different.

I am not so scared
I am much more tolerant of my limitations
I feel on the ball at work even if not perfect
I tolerate imperfection
I'm not unhappy
I'm more patient
The physical pressure i felt on my chest is gone.
I feel calm.
I feel grounded.

It's a good start. I'm not sure if my beer and pizza diet has something to do with it. ;-). My doctor augmented my meds too, but since I skipped a day, it's hard to tell if they're partially responsible for this pleasant mood swing. They have something to do with me not getting out of bed early though. Mornings are rough.

I had to prepare for failure because web site launches are doomed, they always fail at first. It's not surgery, no sir. Alas I am prepared. ha.

I am trying to EVOLVE out of this old anxious, sad, scared dress that I've been wearing since I can remember. I'm trying to be an optimist. ha. I'll keep you posted.

Amourxxx