Point

Oddly, my main issue at work was resolved today. I'm still digesting it but it can only be better, think I. Unless something very unexpected happens.

Well I have to admit that this week I have been laying low to have the luxury of a 9 to 5 week without much going on. I notice how hard it is. I have this reflex to be the irreplaceable one, consequently I've been working like a dog for too long. This totally goes against my grain, because I'm also a bohemian at heart that never felt at home in an institution (but I tend to hang around loose ones) and prefer to be idle for long period of times. I'm no work horse, never was.

Is this what being bipolar means? Can you be both poles at the same time? (By the way, if you're wondering, I'm not. That's not my box).

So it's hard to resist the urge to break the momentum of spending one week with normal to low work load, but it feels damn good! And I can tell it's doing me a lot of good, hence to everyone around me, right? I could maybe do 2 of those weeks...

Now I still have the strange but true knitting passion. I read it, I crave it, I listen to podcasts on it when I can't read it. I am longing for the beautiful sock needle kit I saw at the shop nearby, or any other knitting related things. I'm trying to knit my sweater real fast to get onto other things.

Anyway, I had a point which is, forget everything I ever said in this blog. I am not going to scheme up a plan to turn my life around. I am not going to seek for answers, help, or a divine intervention to get my out of any misery that I occasionnaly feel (but not today). I'm not even going to make a list!

I can see that all i have to do, is what I want. Like today, I want to knit. Just do what comes, and let it happen.

Oh side note, I was going to fix my variable mortgage this week but I missed the low rates by half a day! The difference is pretty huge. Mildly depressing it is.

Amourx.