180

I should not be writing here, but I am. I planned to be at work at 6am, that's in 20 minutes, to catch-up, because last night after 6 I signed off and crashed on the couch before the movie ended. Eastbound jetlag.

It's crunch time as well, but as you may know, I'm not very work focused (which means that I may not do 150%, maybe I'll just do 110 or something like that - and I'll feel guilty about that).

Remember when I re-started this blog? I wanted to measure everything, my mood, my surroundings, my health... Now I'm thinking that what I should pay attention to is my self esteem. When I start thinking that I'm a lowly, thickish, stupider, slow, inept person (does Europe do that to you too?), never mind what I look like, that might be a sign. I'm here now.

On the upside, I tried to summarize what it is that I want in my life yesterday, before I go all 180 degrees again. Usually it's always health, friends, beauty, great lover, great work etc...
My priorities are always Health, Social (and I don't do a great job at that), and I forget what's third.

This time, it was all like: Time to sew (I don't even sew yet, I knit, but the sewing is coming), lover, writing, friends, taking care of someone in need, time to enjoy all that.

I have matured.

I'm happy to be back. I love my home, my winter, my bf in my bed.

Amourx.