Olive

I made a new room. It has my faithful machine propped up at just the right height, a barely there chair, also perfectly ajusted. My brand new keyboard lies beside the computer, waiting for me to play it. My room has a window and a door with blinds that I can open and close. It has shelves and space for things. It's of a calming, dark olive green. The closet doors don't close just yet, because my gear of all kinds has been shuffled in there as I was creating space. It's not crammed, it's just waiting to be picked up. I make my rooms slow-ly.

It's quiet, except for the machine's infernal fan noise, and the occasional train (but I like the trains). Outside of the door, there is a balcony, and a few steps that take me to the future parking lot that I won't use. This week-end, they have put the grass in and planted shrubs and small trees in front and back of my home. I love my home. I will take my one plant back inside for the night.

I took Friday off which made sense because I was poorly. I am over the depression bout I think, I hope. At least what has caused it has progressed. And this is far more interesting than if I had kept things in. Better to have toxic out than toxic in, even if it disturbs (and I so hate disturbing!).

I don't know what comes next. It will be interesting to see if I will be traveling or not. And if I will be miserly or thrilled, edified or dumbified. I don't hold all the cards, but I will fight my battle if I must, as usual. Using my head, my heart and my own two legs.

In other breaking news today, I'm on a 'boot camp' diet. 1200 calories per day my friends. Very well balanced though, and with delicious, surprising, recipes. I do not feel deprived at all. Maybe a little light headed though. This is only for 10 days, then I'll move onto 1500 until I'm back to my normal size, then I'll move onto 1800.

A hole new room, enveloping and calming. Solid. Who would of thought!?

Amourx