Safety

Again a lot of action in life, more than I can keep track of. When I get a lot of action, I need a lot of sleep. This week I am slowly becoming less busy at work, and that makes me worry. It’s my nature, that when I am not submerged, I worry about my role. Being busy pulls me in. I should be brave enough to take it. Take the slowness and just be normal.

At home, well, I had lost track of most good habits. I write here because I want them back. There has been a lovely trip to distract me. A lovely relationship to keep on surprising me. Drinking and eating much to much. Cleaning done for appearances and then that.

I don’t want to beat myself up. It’s too easy to do that. I want to ground me. Relax. Ride my bike while I can’t walk. Do one little habit at a time. Eat lovely meals.

The fact is that it’s hard to be taken by a wave at work, or what feels like it, then to adjust back when it gets normal. I have a lot of catching up to do. I feel guilty about bills and taxes. But I have been to the dentist, the generalist, and tomorrow to get my breast exam!

I think that the best habit would be to write the good things. Here goes:

-eating, walking and cuddling with beau for lunch

-the beautiful summer days

-biking for HOURS in the week-end

-taking the time off with no plans in the week-end

-be willing to listen and calm down tonight

-the quiet

-the busy bees

-the movie last night -- the iron lady

-my girlfriends life, on Facebook

-love and all that

-a safe, comfortable home

-overal health

-Happiness -- who would have thought!

I will try to have respite in my day life, slowly and quietly, keep a place for safety alone. It might be here.

Amourxxx.