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A very few words for today.

My neck is strained, the weather so hot. Very few things I must do to get through. I have a lunch with a dear friend.

I’m drinking questionable coffee but its good, probably way too strong. No food yet, I am not hungry, I should eat still.

Mostly I rest, read, write, be in stories and listen to podcasts. Keep house just enough tidy no worse. That’s all I have been doing so far.

My intention is to have a good attitude and make things as best as I can. Retire when I get too tired, that’s what I want to do. But I wonder about my next vacation. I need to think about that.

Amourx.

Less work more care

Been sick 3 days and home all day today, feeling some guilt for it. But I am ok. I looked at what was important and family came first so I cleaned a bit, so little, but it’s better than it was. I sent emails at work with my junk/anonymous email address. I listened to tv shows and podcasts now, being tired. It’s like if I was depressed but I’m not giving into that.

I understand it’s a perspective thing. I can spin this around if I feel like it. I can also protect myself and this is what I am doing. I’m still good and in love with beau. Won’t write about him too much, he is allowed his confidentiality even if no one reads me.

I can write about what I wish. A three months break from work, so that I take care of the house, care of my skin, health and all. I need to stay close to my friends, family and love if I this happens. I’m not going for a burn out right now, unless I burn out, but thinking about freelancing? Jobs are hard to get. School could be an option.

Mainly, I need to be more social, this will be helpful. Less work, more care. I like that.

Amourx.

Brave

15 minutes to write. This is the day I return to work. I have been frightened about it most of the week but this very morning I am brave. My first task is yoga at 8, a great way to start. Exercise is the one thing that I didn’t do while I was off, except for salsa.

I had a message from work that I didn’t answer, had tremendous fear/guilt even without this. But this morning while I wasn’t sleeping I had the good idea to do a meditation with a podcast. This one really helps put things in perspective.

I think my holiday was full with visiting friends and family, house cleaning and resting. I even started to write. This is so humbling. I will carry on.

For the good day to everyone,

Amourx.